Tired and Emotional

The Cups are the suit of emotions, so even if you didn’t know anything about Tarot you could probably imagine the Queen of Cups as an emotionally-focused HSP, unless you’re that guy I saw on “Don’t Tell the Bride” last night who showed up to his own wedding in a Batman suit. No, not the kind worn by Christian Bale, I could have understood that, though not condoned it of course ;-). No, this was an actual black dress suit with an ugly, yellow Batman logo pattern all over it. It was a good reminder that there’s just no understanding what goes on in some people’s heads. But I digress.

I needed that laugh. It has been a long week. Wednesday I shed some light on how challenging the day job is at the moment. We’re still resolving fundamental foundation issues even though we’re halfway through the project (on paper at least).  Yesterday my partner attended our second session in a course about parenting autistic children. We have twins who are nearly four who are both at different places on the spectrum.

We are in a position where we have to move (our landlord needs his house back—he’s got his own problems) and, if you haven’t heard, there is a housing crisis going on in Ireland. This goes beyond it being a renters market. In the area in which we want to stay to continue our children’s education and quality of care, there isn’t anything to rent at any price. So the landlord is ringing to say “no pressure, but…” and we’re forced to dig our heels in.

Oh, and everybody has a flu virus. Did I mention that? I had my four-year old daughter in KDOCs for a 10:30 PM emergency appointment Wednesday night (it was more like 11:30, KDOCs) to look at a serious-looking rash we discovered at 9 PM. So I bundle her in the car and we wait and wait and wait. At 11:30 we go in to see the doctor. Where was the rash? What rash?

I’m not even going to go into the Springsteen tickets I don’t have.

I’m sure this is all just water off a duck’s back to the kind of guy who wears a Batman suit to a wedding.  But for us HSPs the combined wear and tear can leave one feeling tired and emotional with a desire to shut down, shut the door and go to bed, or to the pub, or something.

As counter-intuitive as it may sound, the times when you most feel like distancing yourself from your emotions are usually the times when you most need to listen to them. No one wants to feel the bad stuff, but trying to shut it out does not make it go away. Until you process those emotions, those feelings just get in your way.

Allow yourself to feel your emotions without judgement. Not to wallow in them, but to face them head on. Feel them, feel the place in your body where you experience each one. Acknowledge them, give them a chance to tell you what they need to communicate, what you need to understand.  If you give them that space they will eventually pass through and resolve. In doing so you will be able to get past them so you can move on to something more pleasant.