Feeling Bad About Doing Well
This isn’t a mistake. This card did come up yesterday also. So the obvious question to myself was, “what did I miss”? So I consulted my sources and a pendulum and soon realized something big about the Six of Wands and its relationship to most of us that really needs to be said.
Success, self-esteem, confidence, pride (in a good way), these are all qualities of the energy of the Six of Wands. I believe I even mentioned that his head was held high—He is not afraid, ashamed, anxious, embarrassed or GUITY about what he’s done or how he feels about it.
How many of us can say that? Be honest.
We have been conditioned to feel bad about doing well for ourselves. For many of us, our “rearing” (what a loaded word) included admonitions to not stand out in the crowd, not draw attention to ourselves. We are told that pride is a deadly sin. We sense some people feel diminished if they see you doing something they cannot do. There are those who envy any success you might enjoy. So when we are recognized for achieving something, or being good at something, there can be negative baggage attached.
Those of us who are HSPs didn’t require much conditioning. We were already sensitive to the feelings of those around us, and having our own overwhelming and misunderstood issues about that. But we got the conditioning anyway, making us even more anxious than others about any success that we might achieve.
When we do well, should we feel guilty that there are people out there who aren’t successful? Should we feel bad that there are those who envy our success? Some people are going to feel that way.
On the other hand, no matter how badly you feel like you are doing you can always find someone worse off than you who will envy what you have, even if what you have is very little. If beating yourself up has ever made anyone else feel better, I haven’t witnessed it. So why, oh why, do we need to panic and be anxious for winning, and pretend it’s no big deal. Helllloooo, it is a big deal. Isn’t this what you’ve been working towards? How dare someone say, imply or otherwise encourage you to feel like you shouldn’t enjoy it.
Listen now. I’m talking to you. You deserve every good thing that comes into your life. You deserve success. You deserve to feel good about yourself. You deserve to take pride in what you do and to allow yourself to know you are good at it. You deserve self-confidence. Keep telling yourself these things until they are a solid, unshakeable part of who you are, and don’t let anyone tell you anything to the contrary.